[taking her hand, and beginning to lead her slowly off the dance floor; there are more comfortable places to sit and be shy and unsure at one another surely!]
. . . Earlier tonight, Kira from Kunzite approached me to kiss me for the game . . . she was quite romantic about it, and--it disturbed me, a bit. I told her I didn't understand how anyone could want to kiss in that fashion when they were not attracted to the other party, and she called me--"romantic." . . . I've never considered myself a romantic. My father is certainly not one! But in all honestly, when she acted in that way towards me, it made me uncomfortable, because I--I've been aware for some time that there is only one person I feel a certain way for.
I-I-I'd wondered if you realized! . . . However, if you had not, I couldn't be surprised. I am not human. People assume certain things about me because of that.
[flushing more violently, but okay this subject can be skirted around mostly innocently to the same effect and point]
--It isn't uncommon, at home! It is not particularly taboo for such relationships to occur! Of course, my father would never approve of a thing like that, but that isn't a concern for most birds. It . . . things are as they are. But that is not how things are for the rest of you.
Well, I-I don't think... I'm sure in Narnia we knew different sorts of Talking Animals who lived together, although... not families, you know--! Since of course they couldn't have children. So I doubt anyone would have minded it...
. . . That's so; it would be different for you. Most people here come from worlds where only human-shaped creatures are intelligent, and if anything else is, it is only attracted to its own kind. But we don't--myself, Ryouta, and Yuuya. I've been questioned and met with surprise before. "Does that happen, where you come from?" . . . And so, I assumed my feelings might go unnoticed, no matter the target of them.
[which they apparently did, but that's beside the point. crossing his legs and arms, leaning back in his chair, thoughtfully]
It -- it wasn't that I didn't notice because it was you. I told you, I-I never... I never thought of wanting to kiss anyone. I never thought of-- romance. At all. That anyone would want-- or that I would...
...and I kept sort of coming over shy with you all the time and I couldn't think why...
I--had wondered, a bit, but I thought--surely not! And yet for some time now, not too terribly long, but long enough to begin to madden me, there has been something I couldn't think how to address, some feeling . . .
[looking down at his hands, and then hers, and then reaching to take hers in his]
[laughs a little, quiet and scoffing, self-deprecating; when he continues, his tone is honest and serious, but somewhat flippant]
In every possible way. To begin with, you have never attempted to murder me! But that is not quite what I was referring to, either. . . . She does not reciprocate my feelings. More than that, I don't believe she even likes me personally. I am attracted to her, but it is a foolish, uncomfortable feeling.
[after a brief pause, a little less self-mockingly:]
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Date: 2013-07-21 06:51 am (UTC)So am I.
[Jill, on the other hand, definitely never stopped blushing]
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Date: 2013-07-21 06:53 am (UTC)I-I . . . um . . .
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Date: 2013-07-21 07:04 am (UTC)...I didn't... I didn't know it was-- like this.
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Date: 2013-07-21 07:05 am (UTC)Er. My feelings--?
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Date: 2013-07-21 07:09 am (UTC)A-any of it. Your feelings or -- mine -- or... kissing...
[laughs again softly]
I feel as if I don't know anything... but I don't mind...
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Date: 2013-07-21 07:15 am (UTC). . . Earlier tonight, Kira from Kunzite approached me to kiss me for the game . . . she was quite romantic about it, and--it disturbed me, a bit. I told her I didn't understand how anyone could want to kiss in that fashion when they were not attracted to the other party, and she called me--"romantic." . . . I've never considered myself a romantic. My father is certainly not one! But in all honestly, when she acted in that way towards me, it made me uncomfortable, because I--I've been aware for some time that there is only one person I feel a certain way for.
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Date: 2013-07-21 07:17 am (UTC)-- you have...?
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Date: 2013-07-21 07:19 am (UTC)[sitting down! is an action that is not making coherent sentences! HENCE IT IS GREAT AND IT IS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW]
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Date: 2013-07-21 07:25 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-07-21 07:29 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-07-21 07:31 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-07-21 07:37 am (UTC)--It isn't uncommon, at home! It is not particularly taboo for such relationships to occur! Of course, my father would never approve of a thing like that, but that isn't a concern for most birds. It . . . things are as they are. But that is not how things are for the rest of you.
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Date: 2013-07-21 07:42 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-07-21 07:47 am (UTC)[which they apparently did, but that's beside the point. crossing his legs and arms, leaning back in his chair, thoughtfully]
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Date: 2013-07-21 08:02 am (UTC)It -- it wasn't that I didn't notice because it was you. I told you, I-I never... I never thought of wanting to kiss anyone. I never thought of-- romance. At all. That anyone would want-- or that I would...
...and I kept sort of coming over shy with you all the time and I couldn't think why...
[actually facepalming at this point]
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Date: 2013-07-21 08:07 am (UTC)[looking down at his hands, and then hers, and then reaching to take hers in his]
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Date: 2013-07-21 08:22 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-07-21 04:51 pm (UTC)You were not the first person here I found myself with an attraction to. But it is so entirely different between you that you may as well have been.
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Date: 2013-07-22 06:38 am (UTC)How... how is it different?
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Date: 2013-07-22 06:51 am (UTC)In every possible way. To begin with, you have never attempted to murder me! But that is not quite what I was referring to, either. . . . She does not reciprocate my feelings. More than that, I don't believe she even likes me personally. I am attracted to her, but it is a foolish, uncomfortable feeling.
[after a brief pause, a little less self-mockingly:]
. . . I dislike myself slightly more for it.
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Date: 2013-07-22 07:03 am (UTC)[withdraws her hand]
Slightly more than what, exactly?
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Date: 2013-07-22 07:06 am (UTC)Than I would if I did not have foolish feelings on occasion.
I--are you unhappy with me?
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Date: 2013-07-22 07:13 am (UTC)...well... I don't know...
[looks down at her hands again]
...is... is that all...? It's just different with me because it's hopeless with the girl you liked first?
[it is totally possible to ask this question in a way that sounds casual, right?]
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Date: 2013-07-22 07:15 am (UTC)[he sounds pretty aghast and horrified, and puts a hand on her shoulder all frettingly]
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Date: 2013-07-22 07:22 am (UTC)Then what did you mean?
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